Chapter 15

by Bram Stoker

　　DR. SEWARD'S DIARY-cont.For a while sheer anger mastered me. It was as if he had during her lifestruck Lucy on the face. I smote the table hard and rose up as I said to him,"Dr. Van Helsing, are you mad?"He raised his head and looked at me, and somehow the tendernessof his face calmed me at once. "Would I were!" he said."Madness were easy to bear compared with truth like this.Oh, my friend, whey, think you, did I go so far round,why take so long to tell so simple a thing?Was it because I hate you and have hated you all my life?Was it because I wished to give you pain? Was it that I wanted,no so late, revenge for that time when you saved my life,and from a fearful death? Ah no!""Forgive me," said I.He went on, "My friend, it was because I wished to be gentle inthe breaking to you, for I know you have loved that so sweet lady.But even yet I do not expect you to believe. It is so hardto accept at once any abstract truth, that we may doubt suchto be possible when we have always believed the `no' of it.It is more hard still to accept so sad a concrete truth,and of such a one as Miss Lucy. Tonight I go to prove it.Dare you come with me?"This staggered me. A man does not like to prove such a truth,Byron excepted from the catagory, jealousy."And prove the very truth he most abhorred."He saw my hesitation, and spoke, "The logic is simple, no madman'slogic this time, jumping from tussock to tussock in a misty bog.If it not be true, then proof will be relief. At worst it will not harm.If it be true! Ah, there is the dread. Yet every dread should help my cause,for in it is some need of belief. Come, I tell you what I propose.First, that we go off now and see that child in the hospital. Dr. Vincent,of the North Hospital, where the papers say the child is, is a friendof mine, and I think of yours since you were in class at Amsterdam.He will let two scientists see his case, if he will not let two friends.We shall tell him nothing, but only that we wish to learn.And then. . .""And then?"He took a key from his pocket and held it up. "And then wespend the night, you and I, in the churchyard where Lucy lies.This is the key that lock the tomb. I had it from the coffinman to give to Arthur."My heart sank within me, for I felt that there was some fearfulordeal before us. I could do nothing, however, so I pluckedup what heart I could and said that we had better hasten,as the afternoon was passing.We found the child awake. It had had a sleep and taken some food,and altogether was going on well. Dr, Vincent took the bandagefrom its throat, and showed us the punctures. There was nomistaking the similarity to those which had been on Lucy's throat.They were smaller, and the edges looked fresher, that was all.We asked Vincent to what he attributed them, and he repliedthat it must have been a bite of some animal, perhaps a rat,but for his own part, he was inclined to think it was one ofthe bats which are so numerous on the northern heights of London."Out of so many harmless ones," he said, "there may be somewild specimen from the South of a more malignant species.Some sailor may have brought one home, and it managedto escape, or even from the Zoological Gardens a young onemay have got loose, or one be bred there from a vampire.These things do occur, you, know. Only ten days ago a wolfgot out, and was, I believe, traced up in this direction.For a week after, the children were playing nothing but RedRiding Hood on the Heath and in every alley in the place untilthis `bloofer lady' scare came along, since then it has beenquite a gala time with them. Even this poor little mite,when he woke up today, asked the nurse if he might go away.When she asked him why he wanted to go, he said he wantedto play with the `bloofer lady'.""I hope," said Van Helsing, "that when you are sending the childhome you will caution its parents to keep strict watch over it.These fancies to stray are most dangerous, and if the childwere to remain out another night, it would probably be fatal.But in any case I suppose you will not let it away for some days?""Certainly not, not for a week at least, longer if the woundis not healed."Our visit to the hospital took more time than we hadreckoned on, and the sun had dipped before we came out.When Van Helsing saw how dark it was, he said,"There is not hurry. It is more late than I thought.Come, let us seek somewhere that we may eat, and then we shallgo on our way."We dined at `Jack Straw's Castle' along with a little crowd of bicyclists andothers who were genially noisy. About ten o'clock we started from the inn.It was then very dark, and the scattered lamps made the darkness greater whenwe were once outside their individual radius. The Professor had evidentlynoted the road we were to go, for he went on unhesitatingly, but, as for me,I was in quite a mixup as to locality. As we went further, we metfewer and fewer people, till at last we were somewhat surprised when wemet even the patrol of horse police going their usual suburban round.At last we reached the wall of the churchyard, which we climbed over.With some little difficulty, for it was very dark, and the whole place seemedso strange to us, we found the Westenra tomb. The Professor took the key,opened the creaky door, and standing back, politely, but quite unconsciously,motioned me to precede him. There was a delicious irony in the offer,in the courtliness of giving preference on such a ghastly occasion.My companion followed me quickly, and cautiously drew the door to,after carefully ascertaining that the lock was a falling, and not aspring one. In the latter case we should have been in a bad plight.Then he fumbled in his bag, and taking out a matchbox and a piece of candle,proceeded to make a light. The tomb in the daytime, and when wreathedwith fresh flowers, had looked grim and gruesome enough, but now,some days afterwards, when the flowers hung lank and dead, their whitesturning to rust and their greens to browns, when the spider and the beetlehad resumed their accustomed dominance, when the time-discolored stone,and dust-encrusted mortar, and rusty, dank iron, and tarnished brass,and clouded silver-plating gave back the feeble glimmer of a candle,the effect was more miserable and sordid than could have been imagined.It conveyed irresistibly the idea that life, animal life, was not the onlything which could pass away.Van Helsing went about his work systematically. Holding hiscandle so that he could read the coffin plates, and so holdingit that the sperm dropped in white patches which congealedas they touched the metal, he made assurance of Lucy's coffin.Another search in his bag, and he took out a turnscrew."What are you going to do?" I asked."To open the coffin. You shall yet be convinced."Straightway he began taking out the screws, and finally lifted off the lid,showing the casing of lead beneath. The sight was almost too much for me.It seemed to be as much an affront to the dead as it would have beento have stripped off her clothing in her sleep whilst living.I actually took hold of his hand to stop him.He only said, "You shall see, "and again fumbling in his bag tookout a tiny fret saw. Striking the turnscrew through the lead witha swift downward stab, which made me wince, he made a small hole,which was, however, big enough to admit the point of the saw.I had expected a rush of gas from the week-old corpse.We doctors, who have had to study our dangers, have to becomeaccustomed to such things, and I drew back towards the door.But the Professor never stopped for a moment. He sawed down acouple of feet along one side of the lead coffin, and then across,and down the other side. Taking the edge of the loose flange,he bent it back towards the foot of the coffin, and holdingup the candle into the aperture, motioned to me to look.I drew near and looked. The coffin was empty. It was certainly a surpriseto me, and gave me a considerable shock, but Van Helsing was unmoved.He was now more sure than ever of his ground, and so emboldened to proceedin his task."Are you satisfied now, friend John?" he asked.I felt all the dogged argumentativeness of my nature awake within me as Ianswered him, "I am satisfied that Lucy's body is not in that coffin,but that only proves one thing.""And what is that, friend John?""That it is not there.""That is good logic," he said, "so far as it goes.But how do you, how can you, account for it not being there?""Perhaps a body-snatcher," I suggested. "Some of the undertaker'speople may have stolen it." I felt that I was speaking folly,and yet it was the only real cause which I could suggest.The Professor sighed. "Ah well!" he said," we must have more proof.Come with me."He put on the coffin lid again, gathered up all his things and placed themin the bag, blew out the light, and placed the candle also in the bag.We opened the door, and went out. Behind us he closed the doorand locked it. He handed me the key, saying, "Will you keep it?You had better be assured."I laughed, it was not a very cheerful laugh, I am bound to say,as I motioned him to keep it. "A key is nothing," I said,"thee are many duplicates, and anyhow it is not difficultto pick a lock of this kind."He said nothing, but put the key in his pocket.Then he told me to watch at one side of the churchyard whilsthe would watch at the other.I took up my place behind a yew tree, and I saw his dark figure move untilthe intervening headstones and trees hid it from my sight.It was a lonely vigil. Just after I had taken my place I hearda distant clock strike twelve, and in time came one and two.I was chilled and unnerved, and angry with the Professorfor taking me on such an errand and with myself for coming.I was too cold and too sleepy to be keenly observant,and not sleepy enough to betray my trust, so altogether Ihad a dreary, miserable time.Suddenly, as I turned round, I thought I saw something like awhite streak, moving between two dark yew trees at the sideof the churchyard farthest from the tomb. At the same timea dark mass moved from the Professor's side of the ground,and hurriedly went towards it. Then I too moved, but I had to goround headstones and railed-off tombs, and I stumbled over graves.The sky was overcast, and somewhere far off an early cock crew.A little ways off, beyond a line of scattered juniper trees,which marked the pathway to the church, a white dim figureflitted in the direction of the tomb. The tomb itself was hiddenby trees, and I could not see where the figure had disappeared.I heard the rustle of actual movement where I had first seenthe white figure, and coming over, found the Professor holdingin his arms a tiny child. When he saw me he held it out to me,and said, "Are you satisfied now?""No," I said, in a way that I felt was aggressive."Do you not see the child?""Yes, it is a child, but who brought it here? And is it wounded?""We shall see," said the Professor, and with one impulse we tookour way out of the churchyard, he carrying the sleeping child.When we had got some little distance away, we went into a clumpof trees, and struck a match, and looked at the child's throat.It was without a scratch or scar of any kind."Was I right?" I asked triumphantly."We were just in time," said the Professor thankfully.We had now to decide what we were to do with the child, and soconsulted about it. If we were to take it to a police station weshould have to give some account of our movements during the night.At least, we should have had to make some statement as to how wehad come to find the child. So finally we decided that we wouldtake it to the Heath, and when we heard a policeman coming,would leave it where he could not fail to find it. We would thenseek our way home as quickly as we could. All fell out well.At the edge of Hampstead Heath we heard a policeman's heavy tramp,and laying the child on the pathway, we waited and watched untilhe saw it as he flashed his lantern to and fro. We heard hisexclamation of astonishment, and then we went away silently.By good chance we got a cab near the `Spainiards,' and drove to town.I cannot sleep, so I make this entry. But I must try to geta few hours' sleep, as Van Helsing is to call for me at noon.He insists that I go with him on another expedition.27 September.--It was two o'clock before we found a suitableopportunity for our attempt. The funeral held at noon wasall completed, and the last stragglers of the mourners had takenthemselves lazily away, when, looking carefully from behind a clumpof alder trees, we saw the sexton lock the gate after him.We knew that we were safe till morning did we desire it, but theProfessor told me that we should not want more than an hour at most.Again I felt that horrid sense of the reality of things, in which anyeffort of imagination seemed out of place, and I realized distinctlythe perils of the law which we were incurring in our unhallowed work.Besides, I felt it was all so useless. Outrageous as it was to opena leaden coffin, to see if a woman dead nearly a week were really dead,it now seemed the height of folly to open the tomb again, when we knew,from the evidence of our own eyesight, that the coffin was empty.I shrugged my shoulders, however, and rested silent, for Van Helsinghad a way of going on his own road, no matter who remonstrated.He took the key, opened the vault, and again courteously motioned meto precede. The place was not so gruesome as last night, but oh,how unutterably mean looking when the sunshine streamed in.Van Helsing walked over to Lucy's coffin, and I followed.He bent over and again forced back the leaden flange, and a shockof surprise and dismay shot through me.There lay Lucy, seemingly just as we had seen her the nightbefore her funeral. She was, if possible, more radiantlybeautiful than ever, and I could not believe that she was dead.The lips were red, nay redder than before, and on the cheekswas a delicate bloom."Is this a juggle?" I said to him."Are you convinced now?" said the Professor, in response,and as he spoke he put over his hand, and in a way that mademe shudder, pulled back the dead lips and showed the white teeth."See," he went on, "they are even sharper than before.With this and this," and he touched one of the canine teethand that below it, "the little children can be bitten.Are you of belief now, friend John?"Once more argumentative hostility woke within me. I could not acceptsuch an overwhelming idea as he suggested. So, with an attempt to argueof which I was even at the moment ashamed, I said, "She may have beenplaced here since last night.""Indeed? That is so, and by whom?""I do not know. Someone has done it.""And yet she has been dead one week. Most peoples in that time wouldnot look so."I had no answer for this, so was silent. Van Helsing did not seem tonotice my silence. At any rate, he showed neither chagrin nor triumph.He was looking intently at the face of the dead woman, raising the eyelids andlooking at the eyes, and once more opening the lips and examining the teeth.Then he turned to me and said,"Here, there is one thing which is different from all recorded.Here is some dual life that is not as the common. She was bittenby the vampire when she was in a trance, sleep-walking, oh,you start. You do not know that, friend John, but you shall knowit later, and in trance could he best come to take more blood.In trance she dies, and in trance she is UnDead, too. So itis that she differ from all other. Usually when the UnDeadsleep at home," as he spoke he made a comprehensive sweepof his arm to designate what to a vampire was `home', "theirface show what they are, but this so sweet that was when shenot UnDead she go back to the nothings of the common dead.There is no malign there, see, and so it make hard that I mustkill her in her sleep."This turned my blood cold, and it began to dawn upon me that Iwas accepting Van Helsing's theories. But if she were really dead,what was there of terror in the idea of killing her?He looked up at me, and evidently saw the change in my face,for he said almost joyously, "Ah, you believe now?"I answered, "Do not press me too hard all at once. I am willing to accept.How will you do this bloody work?""I shall cut off her head and fill her mouth with garlic,and I shall drive a stake through her body."It made me shudder to think of so mutilating the body of the woman whomI had loved. And yet the feeling was not so strong as I had expected.I was, in fact, beginning to shudder at the presence of this being,this UnDead, as Van Helsing called it, and to loathe it.Is it possible that love is all subjective, or all objective?I waited a considerable time for Van Helsing to begin,but he stood as if wrapped in thought. Presently he closedthe catch of his bag with a snap, and said,"I have been thinking, and have made up my mind as to what is best.If I did simply follow my inclining I would do now, at this moment,what is to be done. But there are other things to follow, and thingsthat are thousand times more difficult in that them we do not know.This is simple. She have yet no life taken, though that is of time,and to act now would be to take danger from her forever.But then we may have to want Arthur, and how shall we tell him of this?If you, who saw the wounds on Lucy's throat, and saw the woundsso similar on the child's at the hospital, if you, who sawthe coffin empty last night and full today with a woman who havenot change only to be more rose and more beautiful in a whole week,after she die, if you know of this and know of the white figurelast night that brought the child to the churchyard, and yet of yourown senses you did not believe, how then, can I expect Arthur,who know none of those things, to believe?"He doubted me when I took him from her kiss when she was dying.I know he has forgiven me because in some mistaken idea Ihave done things that prevent him say goodbye as he ought,and he may think that in some more mistaken idea this woman wasburied alive, and that in most mistake of all we have killed her.He will then argue back that it is we, mistaken ones, that havekilled her by our ideas, and so he will be much unhappy always.Yet he never can be sure, and that is the worst of all.And he will sometimes think that she he loved was buried alive,and that will paint his dreams with horrors of what shemust have suffered, and again, he will think that wemay be right, and that his so beloved was, after all,an UnDead. No! I told him once, and since then I learn much.Now, since I know it is all true, a hundred thousand timesmore do I know that he must pass through the bitter watersto reach the sweet. He, poor fellow, must have one hourthat will make the very face of heaven grow black to him,then we can act for good all round and send him peace.My mind is made up. Let us go. You return home for tonightto your asylum, and see that all be well. As for me,I shall spend the night here in this churchyard in my own way.Tomorrow night you will come to me to the Berkeley Hotelat ten of the clock. I shall send for Arthur to come too,and also that so fine young man of America that gave his blood.Later we shall all have work to do. I come with you so faras Piccadilly and there dine, for I must be back here beforethe sun set."So we locked the tomb and came away, and got over the wall of the churchyard,which was not much of a task, and drove back to Piccadilly.NOTE LEFT BY VAN HELSING IN HIS PORTMANTEAU, BERKELEY HOTEL DIRECTED TOJOHN SEWARD, M. D. (Not Delivered)27 September"Friend John,"I write this in case anything should happen. I go alone to watchin that churchyard. It pleases me that the UnDead, Miss Lucy,shall not leave tonight, that so on the morrow night she may bemore eager. Therefore I shall fix some things she like not,garlic and a crucifix, and so seal up the door of the tomb.She is young as UnDead, and will heed. Moreover, these areonly to prevent her coming out. They may not prevail on herwanting to get in, for then the UnDead is desperate, and mustfind the line of least resistance, whatsoever it may be.I shall be at hand all the night from sunset till after sunrise,and if there be aught that may be learned I shall learn it.For Miss Lucy or from her, I have no fear, but that otherto whom is there that she is UnDead, he have not the powerto seek her tomb and find shelter. He is cunning, as I knowfrom Mr. Jonathan and from the way that all along he havefooled us when he played with us for Miss Lucy's life,and we lost, and in many ways the UnDead are strong.He have always the strength in his hand of twenty men, even wefour who gave our strength to Miss Lucy it also is all to him.Besides, he can summon his wolf and I know not what.So if it be that he came thither on this night he shall find me.But none other shall, until it be too late. But it may be thathe will not attempt the place. There is no reason why he should.His hunting ground is more full of game than the churchyardwhere the UnDead woman sleeps, and the one old man watch."Therefore I write this in case. . .Take the papers that are with this,the diaries of Harker and the rest, and read them, and then find thisgreat UnDead, and cut off his head and burn his heart or drive a stakethrough it, so that the world may rest from him."If it be so, farewell."VAN HELSING."DR. SEWARD'S DIARY28 September.--It is wonderful what a good night's sleep will do for one.Yesterday I was almost willing to accept Van Helsing's monstrous ideas,but now they seem to start out lurid before me as outrageson common sense. I have no doubt that he believes it all.I wonder if his mind can have become in any way unhinged. Surely theremust be some rational explanation of all these mysterious things.Is it possible that the Professor can have done it himself?He is so abnormally clever that if he went off his head he would carryout his intent with regard to some fixed idea in a wonderful way.I am loathe to think it, and indeed it would be almost as greata marvel as the other to find that Van Helsing was mad, but anyhowI shall watch him carefully. I may get some light on the mystery.29 September.--Last night, at a little before ten o'clock,Arthur and Quincey came into Van Helsing's room.He told us all what he wanted us to do, but especially addressinghimself to Arthur, as if all our wills were centered in his.He began by saying that he hoped we would all come with him too,"for," he said, "there is a grave duty to be done there.You were doubtless surprised at my letter?" This query wasdirectly addressed to Lord Godalming."I was. It rather upset me for a bit. There has been so muchtrouble around my house of late that I could do without any more.I have been curious, too, as to what you mean."Quincey and I talked it over, but the more we talked,the more puzzled we got, till now I can say for myself that I'mabout up a tree as to any meaning about anything.""Me too," said Quincey Morris laconically."Oh," said the Professor, "then you are nearer the beginning,both of you, than friend John here, who has to go a long wayback before he can even get so far as to begin."It was evident that he recognized my return to my old doubting frameof mind without my saying a word. Then, turning to the other two,he said with intense gravity,"I want your permission to do what I think good this night.It is, I know, much to ask, and when you know what it is Ipropose to do you will know, and only then how much.Therefore may I ask that you promise me in the dark,so that afterwards, though you may be angry with me for a time,I must not disguise from myself the possibility that such may be,you shall not blame yourselves for anything.""That's frank anyhow," broke in Quincey. "I'll answer for the Professor.I don't quite see his drift, but I swear he's honest, and that's goodenough for me.""I thank you, Sir," said Van Helsing proudly. "I have done myself the honorof counting you one trusting friend, and such endorsement is dear to me."He held out a hand, which Quincey took.Then Arthur spoke out, "Dr. Van Helsing, I don't quite liketo `buy a pig in a poke', as they say in Scotland, and if itbe anything in which my honour as a gentleman or my faithas a Christian is concerned, I cannot make such a promise.If you can assure me that what you intend does not violateeither of these two, then I give my consent at once, though forthe life of me, I cannot understand what you are driving at.""I accept your limitation," said Van Helsing, "and all I ask of youis that if you feel it necessary to condemn any act of mine,you will first consider it well and be satisfied that it does notviolate your reservations.""Agreed!" said Arthur. "That is only fair. And now that the pourparlersare over, may I ask what it is we are to do?""I want you to come with me, and to come in secret,to the churchyard at Kingstead."Arthur's face fell as he said in an amazed sort of way,"Where poor Lucy is buried?"The Professor bowed.Arthur went on, "And when there?""To enter the tomb!"Arthur stood up. "Professor, are you in earnest, or is it somemonstrous joke? Pardon me, I see that you are in earnest."He sat down again, but I could see that he sat firmly and proudly,as one who is on his dignity. There was silence until he asked again,"And when in the tomb?""To open the coffin.""This is too much!" he said, angrily rising again."I am willing to be patient in all things that are reasonable,but in this, this desecration of the grave, of one who.. ." He fairly choked with indignation.The Professor looked pityingly at him."If I could spare youone pang, my poor friend," he said, "God knows I would.But this night our feet must tread in thorny paths, or later,and for ever, the feet you love must walk in paths of flame!"Arthur looked up with set white face and said, "Take care, sir, take care!""Would it not be well to hear what I have to say?" said Van Helsing."And then you will at least know the limit of my purpose.Shall I go on?""That's fair enough," broke in Morris.After a pause Van Helsing went on, evidently with an effort, "Miss Lucyis dead, is it not so? Yes! Then there can be no wrong to her.But if she be not dead. . ."Arthur jumped to his feet, "Good God!" he cried. "What do you mean?Has there been any mistake, has she been buried alive?"He groaned in anguish that not even hope could soften."I did not say she was alive, my child. I did not think it.I go no further than to say that she might be UnDead.""UnDead! Not alive! What do you mean? Is this all a nightmare,or what is it?""There are mysteries which men can only guess at, which age by age theymay solve only in part. Believe me, we are now on the verge of one.But I have not done. May I cut off the head of dead Miss Lucy?""Heavens and earth, no!" cried Arthur in a storm of passion."Not for the wide world will I consent to any mutilationof her dead body. Dr. Van Helsing, you try me too far.What have I done to you that you should torture me so?What did that poor, sweet girl do that you should want to cast suchdishonor on her grave? Are you mad, that you speak of such things,or am I mad to listen to them? Don't dare think more of sucha desecration. I shall not give my consent to anything you do.I have a duty to do in protecting her grave from outrage,and by God, I shall do it!"Van Helsing rose up from where he had all the time been seated, and said,gravely and sternly, "My Lord Godalming, I too, have a duty to do, a dutyto others, a duty to you, a duty to the dead, and by God, I shall do it!All I ask you now is that you come with me, that you look and listen,and if when later I make the same request you do not be more eager for itsfulfillment even than I am, then, I shall do my duty, whatever it may seemto me. And then, to follow your Lordship's wishes I shall hold myselfat your disposal to render an account to you, when and where you will."His voice broke a little, and he went on with a voice full of pity."But I beseech you, do not go forth in anger with me. In a long lifeof acts which were often not pleasant to do, and which sometimesdid wring my heart, I have never had so heavy a task as now.Believe me that if the time comes for you to change your mindtowards me, one look from you will wipe away all this so sad hour,for I would do what a man can to save you from sorrow. Just think.For why should I give myself so much labor and so much of sorrow?I have come here from my own land to do what I can of good, at thefirst to please my friend John, and then to help a sweet young lady,whom too, I come to love. For her, I am ashamed to say so much,but I say it in kindness, I gave what you gave, the blood of my veins.I gave it, I who was not, like you, her lover, but only herphysician and her friend. I gave her my nights and days,before death, after death, and if my death can do her good even now,when she is the dead UnDead, she shall have it freely."He said this with a very grave, sweet pride, and Arthur was muchaffected by it.He took the old man's hand and said in a broken voice,"Oh, it is hard to think of it, and I cannot understand,but at least I shall go with you and wait."