Snow
The three stood listening to a fresh accessOf wind that caught against the house a moment,Gulped snow, and then blew free again––the ColesDressed, but dishevelled from some hours of sleep,Meserve belittled in the great skin coat he wore. Meserve was first to speak. He pointed backwardOver his shoulder with his pipe-stem, saying,“You can just see it glancing off the roofMaking a great scroll upward toward the sky,Long enough for recording all our names on.––I think I’ll just call up my wife and tell herI’m here––so far––and starting on again.I’ll call her softly so that if she’s wiseAnd gone to sleep, she needn’t wake to answer.”Three times he barely stirred the bell, then listened.“Why, Lett, still up? Lett, I’m at Cole’s. I’m late.I called you up to say Good-night from hereBefore I went to say Good-morning there.––I thought I would.––I know, but, Lett––I know––I could, but what’s the sense? The rest won’t beSo bad.––Give me an hour for it.––Ho, ho,Three hours to here! But that was all up hill;The rest is down.––Why no, no, not a wallow:They kept their heads and took their time to itLike darlings, both of them. They’re in the barn.––My dear, I’m coming just the same. I didn’tCall you to ask you to invite me home.––”He lingered for some word she wouldn’t say,Said it at last himself, “Good-night,” and then,Getting no answer, closed the telephone.The three stood in the lamplight round the tableWith lowered eyes a moment till he said,“I’ll just see how the horses are.” “Yes, do,”Both the Coles said together. Mrs. ColeAdded: “You can judge better after seeing.––I want you here with me, Fred. Leave him here,Brother Meserve. You know to find your wayOut through the shed.” “I guess I know my way,I guess I know where I can find my nameCarved in the shed to tell me who I amIf it don’t tell me where I am. I usedTo play––” “You tend your horses and come back.Fred Cole, you’re going to let him!” “Well, aren’t you?How can you help yourself?” “I called him Brother.Why did I call him that?” “It’s right enough.That’s all you ever heard him called round here.He seems to have lost off his Christian name.” “Christian enough I should call that myself.He took no notice, did he? Well, at leastI didn’t use it out of love of him,The dear knows. I detest the thought of himWith his ten children under ten years old.I hate his wretched little Racker Sect,All’s ever I heard of it, which isn’t much.But that’s not saying––Look, Fred Cole, it’s twelve,Isn’t it, now? He’s been here half an hour.He says he left the village store at nine.Three hours to do four miles––a mile an hourOr not much better. Why, it doesn’t seemAs if a man could move that slow and move.Try to think what he did with all that time.And three miles more to go!” “Don’t let him go.Stick to him, Helen. Make him answer you.That sort of man talks straight on all his lifeFrom the last thing he said himself, stone deafTo anything anyone else may say.I should have thought, though, you could make him hear you.” “What is he doing out a night like this?Why can’t he stay at home?” “He had to preach.” “It’s no night to be out.” “He may be small,He may be good, but one thing’s sure, he’s tough.” “And strong of stale tobacco.” “He’ll pull through.” “You only say so. Not another houseOr shelter to put into from this placeTo theirs. I’m going to call his wife again.” “Wait and he may. Let’s see what he will do.Let’s see if he will think of her again.But then I doubt he’s thinking of himselfHe doesn’t look on it as anything.” “He shan’t go––there!” “It is a night, my dear.” “One thing: he didn’t drag God into it.” “He don’t consider it a case for God.” “You think so, do you? You don’t know the kind.He’s getting up a miracle this minute.Privately––to himself, right now, he’s thinkingHe’ll make a case of it if he succeeds,But keep still if he fails.” “Keep still all over.He’ll be dead––dead and buried.” “Such a trouble!Not but I’ve every reason not to careWhat happens to him if it only takesSome of the sanctimonious conceitOut of one of those pious scalawags.” “Nonsense to that! You want to see him safe.” “You like the runt.” “Don’t you a little?” “Well,I don’t like what he’s doing, which is whatYou like, and like him for.” “Oh, yes you do.You like your fun as well as anyone;Only you women have to put these airs onTo impress men. You’ve got us so ashamedOf being men we can’t look at a good fightBetween two boys and not feel bound to stop it.Let the man freeze an ear or two, I say.––He’s here. I leave him all to you. Go inAnd save his life.––All right, come in, Meserve.Sit down, sit down. How did you find the horses?” “Fine, fine.” “And ready for some more? My wife hereSays it won’t do. You’ve got to give it up.” “Won’t you to please me? Please! If I say please?Mr. Meserve, I’ll leave it to your wife.What did your wife say on the telephone?” Meserve seemed to heed nothing but the lampOr something not far from it on the table.By straightening out and lifting a forefinger,He pointed with his hand from where it layLike a white crumpled spider on his knee:“That leaf there in your open book! It movedJust then, I thought. It’s stood erect like that,There on the table, ever since I came,Trying to turn itself backward or forward,I’ve had my eye on it to make out which;If forward, then it’s with a friend’s impatience––You see I know––to get you on to thingsIt wants to see how you will take, if backwardIt’s from regret for something you have passedAnd failed to see the good of. Never mind,Things must expect to come in front of usA many times––I don’t say just how many––That varies with the things––before we see them.One of the lies would make it out that nothingEver presents itself before us twice.Where would we be at last if that were so?Our very life depends on everything’sRecurring till we answer from within.The thousandth time may prove the charm.––That leaf!It can’t turn either way. It needs the wind’s help.But the wind didn’t move it if it moved.It moved itself. The wind’s at naught in here.It couldn’t stir so sensitively poisedA thing as that. It couldn’t reach the lampTo get a puff of black smoke from the flame,Or blow a rumple in the collie’s coat.You make a little foursquare block of air,Quiet and light and warm, in spite of allThe illimitable dark and cold and storm,And by so doing give these three, lamp, dog,And book-leaf, that keep near you, their repose;Though for all anyone can tell, reposeMay be the thing you haven’t, yet you give it.So false it is that what we haven’t we can’t give;So false, that what we always say is true.I’ll have to turn the leaf if no one else will.It won’t lie down. Then let it stand. Who cares?” “I shouldn’t want to hurry you, Meserve,But if you’re going––Say you’ll stay, you know?But let me raise this curtain on a scene,And show you how it’s piling up against you.You see the snow-white through the white of frost?Ask Helen how far up the sash it’s climbedSince last we read the gage.” “It looks as ifSome pallid thing had squashed its features flatAnd its eyes shut with overeagernessTo see what people found so interestingIn one another, and had gone to sleepOf its own stupid lack of understanding,Or broken its white neck of mushroom stuffShort off, and died against the window-pane.” “Brother Meserve, take care, you’ll scare yourselfMore than you will us with such nightmare talk.It’s you it matters to, because it’s youWho have to go out into it alone.” “Let him talk, Helen, and perhaps he’ll stay.” “Before you drop the curtain––I’m reminded:You recollect the boy who came out hereTo breathe the air one winter––had a roomDown at the Averys’? Well, one sunny morningAfter a downy storm, he passed our placeAnd found me banking up the house with snow.And I was burrowing in deep for warmth,Piling it well above the window-sills.The snow against the window caught his eye.‘Hey, that’s a pretty thought’––those were his words.‘So you can think it’s six feet deep outside,While you sit warm and read up balanced rations.You can’t get too much winter in the winter.’Those were his words. And he went home and allBut banked the daylight out of Avery’s windows.Now you and I would go to no such length.At the same time you can’t deny it makesIt not a mite worse, sitting here, we three,Playing our fancy, to have the snowline runSo high across the pane outside. There whereThere is a sort of tunnel in the frostMore like a tunnel than a hole––way downAt the far end of it you see a stirAnd quiver like the frayed edge of the driftBlown in the wind. I like that––I like that.Well, now I leave you, people.” “Come, Meserve,We thought you were deciding not to go––The ways you found to say the praise of comfortAnd being where you are. You want to stay.” “I’ll own it’s cold for such a fall of snow.This house is frozen brittle, all exceptThis room you sit in. If you think the windSounds further off, it’s not because it’s dying;You’re further under in the snow––that’s all––And feel it less. Hear the soft bombs of dustIt bursts against us at the chimney mouth,And at the eaves. I like it from insideMore than I shall out in it. But the horsesAre rested and it’s time to say good-night,And let you get to bed again. Good-night,Sorry I had to break in on your sleep.” “Lucky for you you did. Lucky for youYou had us for a half-way stationTo stop at. If you were the kind of manPaid heed to women, you’d take my adviceAnd for your family’s sake stay where you are.But what good is my saying it over and over?You’ve done more than you had a right to thinkYou could do––now. You know the risk you takeIn going on.” “Our snow-storms as a ruleAren’t looked on as man-killers, and althoughI’d rather be the beast that sleeps the sleepUnder it all, his door sealed up and lost,Than the man fighting it to keep above it,Yet think of the small birds at roost and notIn nests. Shall I be counted less than they are?Their bulk in water would be frozen rockIn no time out to-night. And yet to-morrowThey will come budding boughs from tree to treeFlirting their wings and saying Chickadee,As if not knowing what you meant by the word storm.” “But why when no one wants you to go on?Your wife––she doesn’t want you to. We don’t,And you yourself don’t want to. Who else is there?” “Save us from being cornered by a woman.Well, there’s”––She told Fred afterward that inThe pause right there, she thought the dreaded wordWas coming, “God.” But no, he only said“Well, there’s––the storm. That says I must go on.That wants me as a war might if it came.Ask any man.” He threw her that as somethingTo last her till he got outside the door.He had Cole with him to the barn to see him off.When Cole returned he found his wife still standingBeside the table near the open book,Not reading it. “Well, what kind of a manDo you call that?” she said. “He had the giftOf words, or is it tongues, I ought to say?” “Was ever such a man for seeing likeness?” “Or disregarding people’s civil questions––What? We’ve found out in one hour more about himThan we had seeing him pass by in the roadA thousand times. If that’s the way he preaches!You didn’t think you’d keep him after all.Oh, I’m not blaming you. He didn’t leave youMuch say in the matter, and I’m just as gladWe’re not in for a night of him. No sleepIf he had stayed. The least thing set him going.It’s quiet as an empty church without him.” “But how much better off are we as it is?We’ll have to sit here till we know he’s safe.” “Yes, I suppose you’ll want to, but I shouldn’t.He knows what he can do, or he wouldn’t try.Get into bed I say, and get some rest.He won’t come back, and if he telephones,It won’t be for an hour or two.” “Well then.We can’t be any help by sitting hereAnd living his fight through with him, I suppose.”Cole had been telephoning in the dark.Mrs. Cole’s voice came from an inner room:“Did she call you or you call her?” “She me.You’d better dress: you won’t go back to bed.We must have been asleep: it’s three and after.” “Had she been ringing long? I’ll get my wrapper.I want to speak to her.” “All she said was,He hadn’t come and had he really started.” “She knew he had, poor thing, two hours ago.” “He had the shovel. He’ll have made a fight.” “Why did I ever let him leave this house!” “Don’t begin that. You did the best you couldTo keep him––though perhaps you didn’t quiteConceal a wish to see him show the spunkTo disobey you. Much his wife’ll thank you.” “Fred, after all I said! You shan’t make outThat it was any way but what it was.Did she let on by any word she saidShe didn’t thank me?” “When I told her ‘Gone,’‘Well then,’ she said, and ‘Well then’––like a threat.And then her voice came scraping slow: ‘Oh, you,Why did you let him go’?” “Asked why we let him?You let me there. I’ll ask her why she let him.She didn’t dare to speak when he was here.Their number’s––twenty-one? The thing won’t work.Someone’s receiver’s down. The handle stumbles.The stubborn thing, the way it jars your arm!It’s theirs. She’s dropped it from her hand and gone.” “Try speaking. Say ‘Hello’!” “Hello. Hello.” “What do you hear?” “I hear an empty room––You know––it sounds that way. And yes, I hear––I think I hear a clock––and windows rattling.No step though. If she’s there she’s sitting down.” “Shout, she may hear you.” “Shouting is no good.” “Keep speaking then.” “Hello. Hello. Hello.You don’t suppose––? She wouldn’t go out doors?” “I’m half afraid that’s just what she might do.” “And leave the children?” “Wait and call again.You can’t hear whether she has left the doorWide open and the wind’s blown out the lampAnd the fire’s died and the room’s dark and cold?” “One of two things, either she’s gone to bedOr gone out doors.” “In which case both are lost.Do you know what she’s like? Have you ever met her?It’s strange she doesn’t want to speak to us.” “Fred, see if you can hear what I hear. Come.” “A clock maybe.” “Don’t you hear something else?” “Not talking.” “No.” “Why, yes, I hear––what is it?” “What do you say it is?” “A baby’s crying!Frantic it sounds, though muffled and far off.” “Its mother wouldn’t let it cry like that,Not if she’s there.” “What do you make of it?” “There’s only one thing possible to make,That is, assuming––that she has gone out.Of course she hasn’t though.” They both sat downHelpless. “There’s nothing we can do till morning.” “Fred, I shan’t let you think of going out.” “Hold on.” The double bell began to chirp.They started up. Fred took the telephone.“Hello, Meserve. You’re there, then!––And your wife?Good! Why I asked––she didn’t seem to answer.He says she went to let him in the barn.––We’re glad. Oh, say no more about it, man.Drop in and see us when you’re passing.” “Well,She has him then, though what she wants him forI don’t see.” “Possibly not for herself.Maybe she only wants him for the children.” “The whole to-do seems to have been for nothing.What spoiled our night was to him just his fun.What did he come in for?––To talk and visit?Thought he’d just call to tell us it was snowing.If he thinks he is going to make our houseA halfway coffee house ’twixt town and nowhere–––” “I thought you’d feel you’d been too much concerned.” “You think you haven’t been concerned yourself.” “If you mean he was inconsiderateTo rout us out to think for him at midnightAnd then take our advice no more than nothing,Why, I agree with you. But let’s forgive him.We’ve had a share in one night of his life.What’ll you bet he ever calls again?”
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